And this week

Well this week has been the same as other weeks I suppose. The beginning at least.

Shark and I went on a double date on Tuesday. It was really nice for us to go on a date. Lately our dates have had a 3rd wheel. It's not that we can't find someone to watch Danger, it's just that lately our dates have been sort of spur of the moment. We just sorta get in the car and go. 

Then Wednesday, The Headache hit me. It was the worst headache I've had since before the heart surgery! I haven't had a bad one like this in a long long time!! Thursday I went to the chiropractor and the crick in my neck went away, but the headache stayed. Today (Saturday) is day 4 of this blasted headache. Day 4 of the aura, of the lightheaded ness, of the dizzy spells, of the pain. Ugh. I can tell you, after I went to the chiropractor, the pain changed. I don't know how to explain it, it's like it went from an external pain that can be fixed to an internal pain that I just have to deal with. I've been dealing with headaches for a long long time. Thank goodness I have a flexible schedule and am able to just hang out on the couch with Danger. 

Friday I went to drop off stuff at the DI, then ran to Walmart, and I ended up parking next to a friend of mine! So we hung for a while that day. Her youngest son is 2 months older than Danger. I decided I needed something else to do so I thought I'd make some "calm down bottles" I found on Pinterest. 

The pink and purple don't have the stickers off yet, and I have to use goo-gone to get the sticker residue off the blue and green. I took SmartWater bottles, bought way more glitter than I'll ever need, and some tacky gel glue. I used hot water, poured the glue in first to mix it in, then dumped copious amounts of glitter in. Then, since super glue didn't keep the lid secure I used Gorilla glue. They last for about 3 minutes. 

I've been working on Christmas presents, wedding presents and baby gifts. My sister is getting married next week. (I KNOW!!!) And so I've been working on getting something together for them.  Danger and I are flying back to WI for the reception. It'll be his first time on an airplane. He's going to sit on my lap, he won't be 2 yet, so he'll be free. We're bringing a portable DVD player and plenty of fruit snacks. Grandma and grandpa are so excited to see him. 

This kid is why I can never find my cans of food!

Peace love and cheesy grins!

Me - 16 weeks. 

Week rewind

So this is how the past two weeks have gone. Ok maybe it's the past 3 weeks, I don't really remember. In fact, lately I don't really remember anything.

I was at a stop light and I turned and saw my "not-so-flexible" son licking his knees. Not sure why or even how, but he was doing it. 

I was buying a plank of wood for a craft project. I learned : a 12 foot board is 2 inches too long to fit in my Durango and I'm stronger than I look and feel. 

We don't go to the park very often but when we do, Danger gets his full of the swings. He would never leave the swings or the slide, ever!!

This happened. And then an hour later this happened...

He fell/jumped off a bunk bed and broke his collar bone. He was the saddest little guy I ever saw. 

So sad. He would only leave the brace and wrap on when he slept. He tears it off if he's not sleepy or snuggly. 

But him being snuggly means I got lots of pics of me and him together. And even tho he's been hurting, he's still full of smiles. So much cheese in this little guy. 

He awful cute when he's playing with Bandit. He pets him, rides on him, jumps on him, and plays with his ears. It sure is cute to watch. And Bandit is so good about just letting Danger mess with him. 

The cousins playing together at grandma's. I told them to say CHEESE. I had random shouts of cheese follow me the rest of the night. 

There have been tons of smiles, even tho he's been in pain for a few days. He's still my little ham!

Momma closed her eyes for one of shows. He figured out how to swipe open my iPhone AND he figured out how to swipe the camera open!! I got quite a few pictures of him just cheesing it up for the camera. 

We went to ComicCon and Danger dressed up as Dr. Horrible, I went as Penny, and Shark went as Captain Hammmer. I think he's a dead ringer for Dr. Horrible!

Little man snaked a loaf of bread and devoured it. Not before showing us his cheese! Lately he's been squinting his eyes like crazy when he shows us his cheese. He's pretty silly. 

I've been feelin kinda stressed with this pregnancy. Well, not the pregnancy so much, it's the end result. I'm stressed about having 2 children. I know every mom goes thru moments where she feels inadequate and doubtful of her mom-hood. I've been feeling that a lot lately. 

And this is NOT me fishin for compliments. Somedays I know I'm a good mom the Danger. But I'm still worried about being a good mom to 2 of them. 

When I look back, I felt nervous when Shark and I got married. But once it was all done, things fell into place, we got into sync and it was as if we had always been married. I felt this same nervousness when I was pregnant with Danger. But after he'd been with us for a while, it all fell unto place, we got into sync and it was as if he had always been with us! I'm hoping its the same way with this child. 

I struggle with my own humanness a lot, my emotions and my reactions. But I've been working on it. I know I'm not the only mom who deals with this, I know I'm not alone. And I also know, I'm a good mom. I do what I can, yeah, it's not everything you see on Pinterest. But I do my best. I do what I can for my family. 

The thin I think I look forward to the most is this : 

When it'll be me and this guy and another little face squished in there! I look forward to just watching my kids, just hanging out with them. We are truly blessed with Shark's job cuz I'm able to stay home with my kids! 

I really am excited, just nervous of my own flaws. But I know with the help of family, friends, and my Heavenly Father, I know I can be the best mom I can be!!!